Day 8 Of Misery Without Her

Day 8 without her.Today i guess the truth is there and nothing can be undone.i thought things would be fine after she came to my house but sudden i saw her blog and i know my whole heart is shattered.thought u say give time to let u know me better but u didnt give urself to learn and understand abt me at all when u did such a decision.it really pains me and i really beeen hurt tis time round too deep and i dunno how long will it heal tis wound of mine.Didnt msg her the whole day and she didnt do it too knew tat we are coming to and end of the thing.Maybe to love someone is to really let her go and let her be happy with her life.i guess i have to agree with tis cos even though u can be by my side but ur heart is not then wats the point.i maybe childish at times but life is always full of mistakes and thru tat then we learn how to grow up.its been a tiring day and i really wish to jus fall asleep and never wake up cos i know once i wake up she is always on my mind..I think i did my mbest trying and thanks alot of ppl helping me by the side even though so many things happen in such a short period of times and i really let u all down.i'm really tired for u treating me cold at times and hot at times.y muz u torture me till tis state i guess i jus been blown away by wat u wrote in friendster(LETS GET USED WITHOUT EACH OTHER).i know its easy for u but for me it will take alot of time.im sorry to say tat but i really thank u for giving me a happy memory and the time we spend together.i really dunoo wat else or things to do cos i lost a ger i love and a ger i treated her as a gd fren.i have totally lost and i have admitted defeat and i jus feel like throwing myself away.Kenneth Chan Yi Long u r the weakest link in relationship.im sorry i cant be the perfect one in ur life and i disappointed u.may u find ur happiness soon.i promise from today onwards i will not disturb u neither get close to u.this is all i can do cos i dont wan u to see my fragile side neither would i wanna break down in front of u cos i cant afford it.i now really dunno who the fuck am i anymore.i have lost my sense in life annd the human touch as well.Trust & Undestanding is all bullshit never will i trust or understand anyone from today onwards.Till the day the next fellow who can melt my heartless heart if not there will never be one.jus leave me alone everyone,i dont wan any sympathy neither love neither care.I need to find another job to lessen my debt and also to keep me busy.i dont have much time cos i know my sickness is back i jus feel giddy and break into a cold sweat.whole body tremble and i feel like shit.If u wan my life come take it dont waste my time neither others.

Breaking Down,

Kenneth Chan