Almost There

Did i make her piss off again?i really got nothing to do with that new staff,i really dunno wat wrong with me.i think i almost here in breaking down.thought a couple should be there for each other and also support each other?i feeling lost in a way or two,i'm not angry but paranoid of myself cos the things i done not enough or cant reach ur expectation?do u always have to get piss off with me and the things i do isnt correct?am i a so shut up tat when things get into the way that i have to jus down my head and walk?im doing all the best for u and myself by not getting involve in any girl related issue cos i know u get jealous easily but i really didnt do it at all.everytime issues like tat happen i dunno wat really is happening cos i'm like in a blur state.feelings jus cant express out cos i know for all i care i jus wan u to be happy.even whoever sms or call u i wish to know but i know if i ask u will get angry de.Is i no use i guess cant even ask u.i afraid of many things like boss ask u drink when i know u will say no but the problem lies here when i cant do anything to help jus feel so useless of myself jus feel tat i cant be there for u at times like tat.i feel sad and the sting when ppl buy food for u and its ur fav when i didnt know at all.are u really happy with me??i try many ways to cheer u up cos dont wan u to think to much cos i dont wish u to have depression or feel weird..know it will still linger in ur mind,im sorry to cos all tis unnecessary troubles for u didnt mean it and really foolish of me to make u into tis state i really blame myself all tis while,how can i be so selfish never ever think of ur feelings..wnet downstair to ge ur chicken soup afraid u feel hungry wanted to cook for u de but knw u tired and u didnt wan it.i really never tu lan u jus many things going thru my head.dont wish u to worry so muc cos u already in quite fan le.tats y no matter wat i have to find solutions out.i know i got no $$$,car,house and future.i cant seem to see the road ahead.but will u still wan such a person like me.i feel inferior at times cos i cant give u things tat u wan now.so many things to settle and i know it will take time but will time wait for me and will u..many things are not told cos i jus wanna take care of all our problems we are facing be it no matter wat i jus wan the best for u and .....know u sleeping soundly and u really need more rest then tis..sweet dream my dearand i do hope tomoro is a better day ahead.

Staying Strong,

Kenneth Chan(DEAR)