Day 10 Of Misery Without Her

Day 10,Today was my Off day and looking forward to see the movie 4bia with her later in the nite.woke up early to do my stuff and after that went down to Clarke Quay for a urgent meeting and everything in the meeting was let go know i had to do many changes to my schedule and be handed up by the next day.sat at nectarie for a ice cream waffle which its been a long time since i had it.took the chance to bought her 2 tirimisu cos i know she likes it and think she didnt have 1 for quite sometime as well.meeting ended late and i knew i have to rush a cab to Amk Hub to meet her for the show at 9.50pm.by the time i reach there saw her with Chuanie and shelle which i know i feel like a stranger to them since the day we broke up but still i try to break the ice and sorry cos the show was abt to start if not i would really have dinner with them.took the chance as they left to talk to her not personal things but job and related things.knew if i dont say a thing it will be very strange thru out the whole day together.in the middle of the show she felt cold and i know i cant do much but jus to stay close her and make her feel better abit cos she keep getting shocked or afraid by some disturbing screens.Overall the movie was nice jus that Jeremy Tan keep sms and call me for his btl was at Lunar and he wans to bring it to Clinic which i knew i cant help him only if im there.brought her to Siglap where i like the Hongkong cafe there.sat and had drinks but she kept ggoing to the toilet and vomit.can see its getting worse.hoping she will be better soon.left the place abt 1am and i knew she cant slp tat early so i ask her to came over my place to let her do watever she wans.didnt disturb her at all cos i knew she was having fun talking to herself while playing viwawa.while i was watching the Hongkong Drama.feel this way was nice cos at least staying together for the moment but we do our own things at least im there to see her thru good and bad.played till early morning 6am b4 she wanted to slp when her sickness cam back,keep on coughing and cant slp and kep going to the toilet.She started to breakdonw and i knew i had to do my part.telling her many things and letting know abt life.till 9am where she cant really slp so i decided to bring her go down stairs see a Doc.wanted to go in with er to see wat happen and wat she will tell the Doc everything was like before cos i hole her hands and talk to her.by the time she paid i knew she was heart ache cos it cost $61 which i knew she can do many things with it.wanted to pay for her but she insist.went out of the clinic and she wanted to go home and rest.as we walk she kept thinking abt the $61 whether its worth it.i told her tis i doesnt matter if i pay or wat so long as she wont have to think abt $$$ and getting stress abt it.but she say its like her problem and she wont use my $$$.i knew how stubborn she can get at times cos tat $$$ can let her ccut her hair which i told her tat i pay for it again but she jus refuse.thought everything was back to normal once she took a cab home and i went home but i receive a sms which hit my heart.i hope she wont think it that way and i really wish to get back along soon but i know tis things need time and she need some peace in mind still.tried calling her the instance i think she reach home but she didnt ans maybe she was thinking many things so i went to bed.jus hoping she fine and take her med regularly and get well soon.i really enjoy the day with u and hoping tis will carry on cos its a way to really know each other better.hope she will let me pay for her hair first and u can always return me next month cos tis $$ dont really cos much jus wan u to feel better in life.

Hopefulness,

Kenneth Chan