Day 6 Of Misery Without Her

Day 6,I was half drunk after work and eddy called her to come pick me home.i knew wat was going on but didnt have the strength neither the mindset to think rite.i know i made Ah-ma worry for me since she saw me in that state but i didnt mean it.Alot of things i knew jus that i keep it to myself.Am i really not important in ur heart??well i dont think i need the ans cos i think i knew the ans already.it really sad and hurt me alot but i know i did everything already..U may think tis is another blog jus like the same for gladys but i think u got it wrong cos its the heart that counts.know many things i say cant turn u back,i even went asking ppl how preganancy is like cos i dunno nuts abt it and dont wish to see u suffer like tat..even if im drunk today later i still have to wake up and face my problems again..i feel sad tat u went out with another guy and hurt at tat very instance,it made me think so much till i have no way out of the situation.its not saying going out was wrong cos i knew we broke up and there no other reason tat can keep u from me other ppl..im sorry if i wasted ur precious time coming down to pick me.no matter how much u read from here u wont understand my feelings cos is not really shown here and tis is not a normal blog which i created for fun neither jus to let you touched and love me.i know im useless cant be there for u when u need me most.even if another guy frm tis company was to woo u he stands a better chance cos i know wat kind of situation im in and cant be compare cos i am someone in debt and cant give u things tat u like.i knew i fall hard tis time round but slowly i have to pick myself up and carry on walking tis long road ahead.never will i step into the same mistake again cos i know how bad it feels and is like.Forgive is a big word to use which i knew even though how Ah-ma pleaded for me u still wont forgive in ur heart.be it tat way cos i dont wan her to see me like tat and i know i break her heart even more.thinking of the day b4 and now its so totally diff.but wat else can i hope but the better in life the next life time.u may know everything abt me the past but did u ever really trust me cos if u do u wont Qs neither look at my hp to get the ans.it takes 2 ppl for the mouth to start talking a cvonversation which if a person doesnt reply it seems that its all base on letting ur mindset go wild and imagines things which some maybe rite and some may be wrong.but whether they r rite or wrong the truth is there which only when ask or prompt the ans will then came out if not it will only stay in the dark and never will anyone knows it.

Truthfulness,

Kenneth Chan (DEAR)