Day 7 Of Misery Without Her

Day 7 ,today i find her very foolish in a way.if i never call her i think she would be wondering from 2pm till 6pm at anywhere.i really hope she wont do tis thing anymore.there always a place call Home for u which is my place.dont ever do it cos it really worry me.maybe at times i maybe over protective of u but i dont see a bad neither a gd point.Thanks for helping me taking care of Ah-ma and see her thru her appt me the doc.i hope everything is fine for Ah-ma and i bet Ah-ma told u alot abt me or things.maybe 1 day u will let me know ur conversation with her and Auntie Anna.Sorry cant say much during the afternoon cos rushing for Head Office to help the 4 guys.After those things i came went to work straight didnt eat anything at all and my stomache was grumbling all the time.but have so many unfinished business to settle till i can have a proper dinner which i really thank you again for getting me tat burger cos Aric speak to me alot of things till 10pm.He was lke trying to tell me things abt my 4 guys and alot others which made me know and feel things in a diff angle.Everytime i sad or moody he will always appear and help me out by giving advice but please dont mistaken cos he know nothing abt us.and i didnt tell him at all.Saw chuanie and shelle came to find u and i'm to busy with work and didnt have time to speak to them till late at nite.Day past by slow and i very tired cos didnt really slp much recently,even though its slow but i was happy cos in my heart i know she coming back home to slp.but wat makes my worse day was to saw Alan talking to her but i dont blame her but in my heart i feel the itch.cos i know im jealous and have u ever wonder y a guy ask u out and buy u drinks and talk to u..dont u think he have ther motive then tat.sorry if u think im blunt or straight forward cos im a guy and i know how guys work or thinking.He saw me and he is really someone im going to hate so cos he didnt use to be like tat till now when he gave me those fake smile which i know wat his mind is thinking.i hope and wish that u didnt tell him much abt me.makes my heart boil and piss off wih him more.i know his going to be the head of KTV Lunar and he will get to see u more often but pls be careful of him cos i know his not a simple guy and u r always very naive.which i dont blame u.hope u really take care of ur health cos i can see that its getting bad to worse,have to find out ways and means to make u feel better.like i promise u and Ah-ma i will quit smoking and i will once i finish the last 3 packets.then from there on i know the side effect but im ready to take it cos i dont wish to break it neither will i wanna see myself no up.i know sometimes i cant speak my mind out but i didnt mean it cos im really either stress or in a short anger.Didnt do anything much jus now but did a bunch of flowers using tissue doing it and i spend uite sometime wanted to give u end of the day but saw something which made me throw it away.when im doing it i realise i have never done it for and regreted throwing away cos alot of time and effort was spend doing it.Well,hoping u will slp soundly and wont keep on waking up feeling pain.i know the mian i cook is not up to standard and hope things will improve if i can cook often for u like last time..

Missing u,

Kenneth Chan (DEAR)