Hours past by and i can't get myself to slp.keep on thinking of her every moment i close my eyes.listening to the songs that she always listen and found out many meanings of those songs which really relate her character and mine.i jus cant accept such ending and i have totally lost everything in life.there is nothing i look forward too now but jus slog thru my work.i cant quit neither can i get terminated cos i have a huge debt behind me to settle all involve $$$$.if i dont work and pay i'll end up delcaring bankrupt which i really cant afford to be in those state.i know its to late to say things to make her change her mind but to slowly count the days ahead that she would eventually come back.i know im foolish but this is really 1 ger i really love and given everything in tis relationship.Ah ma like her and so thus my relatives,even thou its jus a month being together but the love for her is so great that its my first time i shed tears for a gal.my heart really hurts seeing her walking out of my hse door but wat else can i do.even if i stop her things will get worse cos she is really in a unstable condition.Been smoking for the last 6hrs i guess,hw many sticks i cant really count but i know i would care much of my health now due to the fact she is no longer here.feeling the loneliness and sadness in me and i cant do anything abt it.y would things get to this state if i didnt msg another ger tis wouldnt have happen.how foolish of me and my thinking.she already given me a chance before when she jus kept quiet and still i am so stupid to have commited it again..and tis time round i really piss her off no matter how much i do or say there wasnt any response from her cos i knew her heart is really hurt by me.KENNETH CHAN YI LONG,Y are u so stupid??eventually i told myself to grab tis chance of cooling down period to start tis blog not wanting to let anyone know but only her.but i wouldnt let her know at the moment cos its not the rite time.i really hope u will come back to me 1 fine day.no matter how long it takes i will wait and win ur trust back in me.i really regret the things i have done.its already 7plus am in the morning yet i cant think of slp but thinking of her thinking abt the happy memories we had even thou its short but i know its the best among the rest of the relationship i have tat makes me wanting to cherish this relationship more.she is always worrying me due to her health cos shes been falling sick easily,now without me by her side i really hope she do take more attention of her health cos i cant be there for her at the moment.Even thou u left but still u will always be my DEAR DEAR in my heart for now and ever.*PLS TAKE GD CARE OF UR HEALTH*will end now but i will update everyday till the day she return to me even thou it will take a few months but my heart have made tis decision to wait as long as she is still not married.hope u are slping well now.
Signing of with love,
Kenneth Chan(Dear)
