Day 16..Care & Concern

Again another bad day.Went to work but feel uneasy cos she gave me a look which she look trouble and distance from me again.tried to ask her wats wrong but she didnt wanna bother me.have to go to work cos the keys are with me.in the mrt she sms me asking me abt Angel who she is and y did i change her name in my hp.which i knew she misunderstand me again.knew no matter how much i say or do wont change her mindset cos she take it as im always giving excuse or hiding things from her which i really never hide from her since that incident.Telling me tat i keep giving her excuses and stuff but to be truthful i really didnt lie neither give excuses.i jus merely change her name on my hp cos im afraid she will get angry or misunderstand me again by seeing when did i knew tis dancer but in fact she is a fren which i knew her yrs back when she was a dancer and was together with a fren of mine.i know how much i say its too hard to trust but i know im telling the truth and not hiding things from u.y i delete her sms cos im afraid when u see it u will think wrongly again.it like me jumping into the yellow river and i cant wipe it off.saw her coming to work but she didnt look at me cos she is angry but wat else can i say when i really feel tat im innocent tis time round.well,i still have to carry on my job scope cos its a friday nite.saw kenneth yang and told him not to use ruler to smack her cos her whole body is aching and she feel pain.at the same time he told me tat the opp store does chinese accupunture and its cheap and wanted to bring her for tis treatment seeing whether it will work.she called me after tat and she was back to normal which i find it strange cos 2hrs back she was angry with me and now she started talking to me.i feel so up and down at times.but didnt wanna bother much cos im afraid to disturb her since today is Yue opeing and she will tend to get stress during work so didnt sms her.was busy thru out the nite till 1am when she sms me telling me she is hungry rush down to coffee club to get wat she wan and deliver it to her.Sometimes i really wonder is there something wrong with me tat i can do everything for her and jus her even though happy or not happy i'll still do it for her.i really love her alot tilll tat extend but can she put some trust in me cos i dont wish to get blame for nothing cos i really feel tat after tat incident i never ever wanna hurt her neither use excuse to bluff her.knew tat next week got event at fountain try to talk to Aric whether can i increase manpower but he told me to find terry.which by the time i find terry i knew he was drunk watever i told him he jus say go ahead without thinking.Saw vikki and knew she left Helipad hope she will come back and lead the cannery team cos now every one feels tat no head is there to guide us thru cos they are all concentrating on Yue which i find it biased.trying to do something out for next week event since i cant go for F1 which really dissappoint me alot.but now Terry is not in a clear mind so watever i told him jus now is a waste of my breath.feel tat tis company is really going towards another direction where i really dunno wat im looking forward too,vikki offer me to go Dubai work with her helping her cos she needs an assistant but she have to wait for the reply from them cos tis is an opportunity and will help me grow when IR is opening 2010 plus they are paying in Poundz.but have to wait and see her results first.Going back to her,i feel tat no matter how much i do will never really touch u and i wonder do u appreciate things i have done as a bf??im really stress out at work and my personal life.y bad things always come to me when i never even expectes it.So many customer complains today and i have to run 3outlets till i got no time to eat at all.my ENT burst today cos of the 7%GsT increase and customer complains which i had to buy drinks for them.but doesnt really matter cos i given up for the day.jus wanna faster end work and wait for her to go home and jus doze ogg.went Lunar asking her whether she wan me to wait for her but she told me need not cos she may end late if not she may return to her own house.sorry if u find me giving a look jus now cos im jus low in mood and tired and hungry and disappointed in the upper management and myself.well wanna stop here cos i realy feel down till the very last of me.hope tomoro will be a better day and she will be coming home to slp.

Down to Earth,

Kenneth Chan