Day 2 Of Misery Without Her

Woke up at 3pm by this sudden reaction,1st thing when i open my eyes i saw her standing in front of me.i was happy in the first place but i know she wasnt here to see me cos she left her working clothes over and was here to get it.she was in a rush for work and by the time i get up she already change and was leaving my hse.Wat can i do or say?Words jus cant come out from my mouth cos i know watever i say now cant make her change her mind.Met up with Eddy(Jasmine Gd buddy)whom is starting work today.i was in no mood for work neither anything else but have to jus carry myself to face it.Saw her once i reach Clarke Quay and i know my day wasnt going to be a pleasant one cosppl around me will sure find out very soon wat happen to us.Wat can i do??no point of escaping but to face the ppl ard me.as night falls,saw her a few times chatting on the phone whenever she walk by with a smile on her face which seems nothing have happen,but deep in my heart i jus cant look at her straight in her face and deep down my heart i hurts and pains to see her like that.She did drop me a few sms but it was like as though she is going to start a parttime job soon telling me for her $$$ very easy earn one.which i feel tat something bad is going to begin.i'm wondering wat makes her speaks that cos i really care and dont wish that she do something foolish jus to earn that easy $$$.now that she is not with me her financial income would be a bigger burden to her as in she got to support her family and herself where will she be able to do it which i have doubts,not saying that i dont trust u but i dont wish things to happen to u.as time past i saw mummy ICE and she ask me how am i?my reply was jus a sad wan and she soon ask me things which i did told mummy that we broke up and wat really happen.i can feel she is sad for both of us but wat else can i assure mummy.by the time is 12am ppl started asking me wat happen to me and her.i feel sad and wanted to keep quiet but i know they would expect me to say something which i jus told them we broke off and i jus left without any other words.it has been a hard day for me but i know there would be more to come later in the nite.I have to face it thru and i know i cant do or change things now but to accept the fate that we broke up and left seperate ways for the time being.i really worry for her cos she is naive at times which makes me pay more attention on her.hope she will reach home safely and soundly which i know i wont be able to know till later when i see her at work.i dont even there to msg her neither call her cos i wouldnt wanna trigger her temper again.To Love Someone & Let Her Go Is Really Something Painful & Its Not Easy To Do So.Kenneth Chan tolerate and hope she will be back soon..Will end here and continue tomoro which i know tis will be the longest blogging i have ever did for the One i Love ever. Dear Dear.sweet dreams & i really miss u beside me=(

With Love
Kenneth Chan (Dear)