Day 3 Of Misery Without Her

Its another day,jump out from bed when i saw the time was 4pm which i know i was late for work already cos i was suppose to start at 4pm.rush and left the hse by the time i reach downstairs,my hp started to ring and i answer whon the caller was Aric Tan(B1) asking where am i.i told him i was late and i know his abit disappointed cos i have never been like tat before.took a cab down to work straight,by the time i reach was already 4.45pm.which my guys were waiting for me too.feel depress but have to fake a smile infront of them.even terry and aric was there but they did not scold me neither did they raise their voice tats what worries me cos i know i disappoint them even more.drop her a msg scare that she would be late for work.time went by and by 7plus i saw her walking towards Lunar.knew she didnt eat so i told mummy Ice to help me buy a fish soup for her.hope she like it??did msg her thru out the nite but i know she was busy at times to reply.during our sms we had many doubts and ??? of the things we say.she told me not to say things so early which i really hope she explain but she didnt.time pass by slowly thru out the nite till 12.30am which there was no crowd and i was like stoning there keep on thinking of her.i really miss her badly and going crazy soon.try to escape tis misery but taking my laptop but found out its low bat.damn even laptop look down on me when i need it.started charging and stone at the same place again.watching happy couples walk by.i feel the emptyiness in me,thinking back when i was busy betting soccer or with her or for work time was not enough by tis time i was like in a different world cos there was nothing for me to do neither anyone to talk too.how come would i end up in this state..am i really fully responsible for all tis..i guess so.but wats done cant be undone the only way out was to change and wait for the chance to come again.By the time i on my laptop i tried to do my staff payroll cos time is running out and i have to hand in soon but i know i cant concentrate,try to openn my friendster and listen to the new songs i updated in it.first song was the song that she like.it made me even down but wat else can i do.all the songs were so touching and its like a everyday thing to me now to listen and to blog.nothing else is more important except her and ah ma.Been smoking more recently and my flu keep on coming which it doesnt seem to stop.wats worng with me i dont have any idea cos im like a living zombie.My life is so stagnant now it like A then B then C.Kelvin saw me sitting there he came over and ask me wat happen and i jus say i broke up and feeling down.Pass Mummy Ice the book cos she wasnt free and her break time had finished.really hope tis time she can pass her BTT.Wat abt me when will i be taking,i really have no idea cos i really dont have any mood to do anything.
Ppl make mistakes in life whether Big or small issue,should they deserve a chanceto be trusted again ?If this chance was not given will they be able to see the daylight again?If they were given a chance they will treasure it and not do it again.cos chance dont come by easily..
I was once a convict i committed many crimes and was once a flirt.but i did change for the better cos i know i hurt my love ones the most and the ppl around me.if they didnt give me a chance i would never be who i am today and wat i am.i really owe them espcially Ah-ma cos i always make her sad and worry for me alot.i regret raising my voice at her and would apologise to her once shes back frm Thailand tomoro.didnt wanted to let her know the special give abt tis blog that i made up for her till a month later but i still gave her cos theres no other way to touched her heart and i really have no way out.Everyone knows i love her alot and sacrifice alot be it time or $$$ but i dont mind and dont care cos she is the truly one i love.its not easy to come across someone u love easily.ppl out there please do cherish it b4 its gone.cos its not easy to get it back.hope she is finishing her work soon.i miss the time we spend together at home.no matter how tired or sick i am whenever she is hungry i'll make sure i'll cook for her cos i wanna fill her stomache with all my love.Well,i stop here for now and continue tomoro.wish tomoro will be a better day ahead and i'm hoping for her return soon.

Sadly Miss,

Kenneth Chan (Dear)