Waves of Interviews

Today been thru a whole day of interviews from town area till tampiness and even more.Trying to get a job soon and i know its not easy cos economy is bad.I know i cant get the pay i once gotten and have to put my pride and even dignity down at times.I tried my best today and will carry on tommorrow till the day i get a job.Once before i was in CLOUD9 where i have everything in life which i ask for and now i lost everything in life is this the will that up above have fated for me?Humans are really fragile once bitten they wont dare do it again and i admit im like this.there is always a chinese saying and i agree with it "Tan De Wu Nian" which is saying about greedy in life.I feel that im in a body without a soul as my soul have left me all that is left is jus a body which is degrading day by day in searching of that long lost soul of mine.Ppl start leaving me and i see that things are changing around me,going out in the streets passing by ppl makes me fearful cos they have a mind full of lust and desire.after which yet again i learn a very important lesson in my life but still it didnt improve much but brought me down to my knees deeper,so deep that i lost my sense of directions.How i wish to see the blue blue sky i once saw before.Now everyday coming home i a fearful thing to me,when will ppl come knocking my door and take my things away.Have been receiving calls and calls from day till nite asking when will i pay up,i know theres no way i can fork that amount out and i know i cant take it any longer before i have to declare bankrupt.Im going thru a harsh period jus that in front of everyone im wearing a mask not letting ppl seeing how hurt or how my situation is rite now.Wondering how long can i be wearing that mask and how long will the ones up there wanna torture me i have strive out my career for the past 5Years and jus a day YOU destroy all of it.Now again i have to fend for my everything again.Will there be the day everything can be start anew??i do really wish it will and the things i have done,will be able to redeem that very chance in life.

*Hope u are happy with ur frens and freedom.