Happy Valentine's Day & Our 7th month Anniversary.

I first wanna wish you a Happy Valentine's Day even though i cant give you anything and also a Happy 7 month's Anniversary yet i know its the last one.I know in our hearts we are sad and hurt and it will take time to heal.I know time have tell you many things about me and i feel sorry to you as well as myself i regret but i know its to late to amend it but to live in the darkness for the time being.Maybe what you say its correct to let you go so that i wont ever hurt ur feelings and also you really can regain ur freedom.I didnt know how much i control ur life till you told me off,i feel sad for myself that y am i so selfish in life.That i never even think for ur feelings.So many thing happen for the past 2 months which its hard on both of us,till now i guess we have a mutual agreement in a way to either cool down or break up.I really hate myself so much and im really lost and dunno what to do now.Its sad for me to know that im retrench deep down my heart i feel like pouring out but i old back my tears and keep quiet cos i dont wish people to see the weak side of me neither wil i wanna show it to you cos i know you have alot of problems in your mind already.Im in a daze for this few days dunno wat to do dunno where to start..its a blow to me losing my job,its another blow to me losing $$$ and the greatest blow will be u that i cant hold on to it yet jus shed tears when u were sound alseep.looking at the way you sleep bring me back to the good days we had.im really fond and in love with you but it takes 2 hands to clap not one..Theres nothing that will change your mind and i respect it,this will give me the time to think hard and really work something out for me and not relying on you neither making you in trouble with me.I may not be the perfect guy in your life that you met but i hope that maybe in years to come when things are better for both of us and you are still single i would ask for you to come back to me.I wanna let you know that from the start of our relationship till now i have never cheated on you and i really devoted my life and love to you and only you which i know its hard to believe me but wat im saying is the truth as i swear to the gods above me.Dont think to much for me cos im not really worth it after what have happen recently and i didnt respect you neither care about your feelings,i feel so lousy that i drag you into so much shit with me which now i really have to stand on my 2 kness and work things out myself not relying on anyone.it make take a few years but its all fated i cant change the past but to live on with it forever.I know i maybe saying alot but i just hope you will bear in mind what i will say cos i dont wish you to get hurt neither see you sad again.dont trust ppl to easily except urself and ur family,they really care for you alot jus that you need to spend abit time with them.mom maybe abit naggy towards you but she really care alot behind when ever u are not around she will ask me about you and ur work,dad may be very quiet but he is doing his best at home to make sure everyone jus need to work and need not bother about the cleaniness of the house,ur sis is there for you whenever u need a listening ear,ur bro maybe young and stubborn at times but his growing up as a teenager if you need someone to talk to him let me know cos i maybe a good example for him.As for you you need to tidy up your room every once a week at least if not crocoaches will come in which you are afraid,bring ur dirty clothes behind and also learn to wake up pack ur bed cos no one will help u do it le,turning 20 years old le no more a young girl but a mature girl with responsiblity to see thru this home of yours.I guess its the last time for me to help you arrange ur cupboard,desk,bed and other things its not in your hands le:)There are many things which i cant speak my mind towards you cos i am not god in saying so i rather wrte down everything in here for you.Dont forget to look after baby & ChouChou & Ee Or.they are ur love ones and the one which will always sleep beside you.As for you,dont drink too much as ur health not very good,if can stop smoking better for you,try to safe your hard earn $$$ not always spending it unneccassary as in cabs and others,pls eat as well not skipping it always.well,i guess that all i have to say.Im sorry which im going to say for the last time that i shatter your dreams your wishes and your image in ppl.i will look for a proper day job as well as a part-time at nite if possible i will also wish to seek for help to quit my gambling addictions.In my heart theres only you cos you sacrifice to much for me before which is y i always tell u i really really love you very very much,Jasmine Yap Shi Min. Thanks for the memories that you gave me and went thru together i really appreciate you alot.dont keep thinking you are not a gd gf or wife cos it takes time to understand somethings in life maybe you havent master the importance things of it yet..slowly take ur time.You still got a long journey ahead t walk and to learn new things.If given a choice to spend my last moment with,i wil wish to spend it with you.Thanks for the Valentine's day present which you gave me..a wake up call telling me the importance of you and the foolish and naive thinking i had in me.i know u hate me very deep and cant forgive easily too,i guess i have done up the whole room for u and its all your care from now onwards.left with a few hours before i part this place with memories and how i wonder when will i see you again and ur family.wish u and ur family be happy always.

With Love,
Ee Fat Ass