Flying on a Jetplane

Looking at the brighter sight in life yet to no where at all.i know many things dont come easy in life which its hard to take it neither believe it.i wonder y am i so down in luck for 2009,things arent the way they are suppose to be or wat i wan it to be.well,i dont even know whether will i be able to hit my target this month it seems so near yet so far.im really trying my best to not anyhow spend my $$$ as well as smoke lesser then my usual self.hoping this year will end soon cos by then i know i would have clear abit of my worries like singtel and courts payment where i can start settling my others payments by then.i know its hard for u in a way not having $$$ and cant even go out and have fun.i feel so sorry but i cant do a thing.is it really me whos dragging you down with me??am i really a burden to you.really makes me wonder as i dont wish to see u agitated with me cos i didnt mean it the way i wanted things to be.