Sunday, June 28, 2009
Flying on a Jetplane
Looking at the brighter sight in life yet to no where at all.i know many things dont come easy in life which its hard to take it neither believe it.i wonder y am i so down in luck for 2009,things arent the way they are suppose to be or wat i wan it to be.well,i dont even know whether will i be able to hit my target this month it seems so near yet so far.im really trying my best to not anyhow spend my $$$ as well as smoke lesser then my usual self.hoping this year will end soon cos by then i know i would have clear abit of my worries like singtel and courts payment where i can start settling my others payments by then.i know its hard for u in a way not having $$$ and cant even go out and have fun.i feel so sorry but i cant do a thing.is it really me whos dragging you down with me??am i really a burden to you.really makes me wonder as i dont wish to see u agitated with me cos i didnt mean it the way i wanted things to be.
Saturday, June 20, 2009
Worse Month that i went thru..
Well,i know theres up and down in life yet i feel so down this month keep on kana so many customers that dont buy,yet looking beside me my colleagues all selling like hot cakes.i really cant imagine is there something wrong with the way i serve them or is it becos i dont have the luck this month..i really wonder wats wrong???
Hpe this month end soon and im looking forward t next month cos i really given up hope as i cant even hit half my target and im left with 5days to chiong and its going to be to hard and stressful which only miracle can help me,well keep on telling myself to be strong and not give up easily but sometimes i really wonder whether am i really cut out for this job and career which i never tried before in life even u ask me this Question which i dont really know how to answer u cos i dont even have the answer within my heart.
Many things are in my mind yet i dunno how t deal with it at times and i dunno how to explain or tell u scare that u get angry or piss off.i will do a list for my next month expenditure so that i can see how much im left and where i really spend the $$$ at.i do really wonder at times is it a better idea for me to return home to stay so that u can save that $200 which u r giving ur family cos i feel that its a waste of $$$ to give them so much yet they dont appreciate yet keep on saying us which i really sometimes feel piss off yet cant show it out.Maybe we should sit down and consider cos this $200 we can save for rainy days.
I really wanna let u know its not that i never put in effort in my work but it diff from other retail cos things are much cheaper then wat im selling.70% luck 30% sales skill.which if a customer walk in with the intention to buy from u,the sales will be urs no one can snatch from u,yet if a customer walks in with a heart not to buy a thing wat ever u say he/she will irgnore u.another kind of customer will be no intnetion to buy but the way u talk makes it sound good then there will be 50% chance u may close the deal.Its really not easy and im really putting effort and i wish u to know that im really working hard.sometimes u ask for my sales i feel sad and at times piss off cos its not that i wish to have those kinda amount.
Dear i do really love u and hope u dont think that i change already cos in fact i dint change yet the lifestyle im living in change cos of work and also $$$ matters that change me.pls dont doubt me and never think tat i dont love u like last time le.
well i am counting this amount im getting next month-$1600/$100 from last mth as the less.so that i can plan properly wat i need to spend on.
1)Courts Bill-$400
2)Singtel Bill-$150
3)Kelvin Bill-$400
4)Anna Bill-$200
5)New HP-$250
6)New Shoes-$30
7)Top up Fare Card-$30
Total amount spend-$1460/- :(
Amount left to use -$240/- :(
Tats so much of my pay gone not even adding paying BANK yet.i probably got the answer in me already that i think i will be declaring bankrupt cos the amount is to great and i cant even fork out any $$$ to pay it,unless i can find a part-time job soon which i already started looking for it.If only the bank can delay my payments till SEPT2009 then i guess i will be rather loose in a way to pay them.hope miracle happens.
Seeing the pas i live with and the present now i am in i know i really did change alot in the way i see $$$ and spend it really wisely.u may think i didnt but in fact i do which only i myself will feel it others wont be able to see it.
Kenneth Chan will keep strong in fighting this war against $$$,cos i wont admit defeat so easily which is not my character.till the day i pay finish everything i know i wont enjoy my life and i really hope u understand wat im thinking.
Hpe this month end soon and im looking forward t next month cos i really given up hope as i cant even hit half my target and im left with 5days to chiong and its going to be to hard and stressful which only miracle can help me,well keep on telling myself to be strong and not give up easily but sometimes i really wonder whether am i really cut out for this job and career which i never tried before in life even u ask me this Question which i dont really know how to answer u cos i dont even have the answer within my heart.
Many things are in my mind yet i dunno how t deal with it at times and i dunno how to explain or tell u scare that u get angry or piss off.i will do a list for my next month expenditure so that i can see how much im left and where i really spend the $$$ at.i do really wonder at times is it a better idea for me to return home to stay so that u can save that $200 which u r giving ur family cos i feel that its a waste of $$$ to give them so much yet they dont appreciate yet keep on saying us which i really sometimes feel piss off yet cant show it out.Maybe we should sit down and consider cos this $200 we can save for rainy days.
I really wanna let u know its not that i never put in effort in my work but it diff from other retail cos things are much cheaper then wat im selling.70% luck 30% sales skill.which if a customer walk in with the intention to buy from u,the sales will be urs no one can snatch from u,yet if a customer walks in with a heart not to buy a thing wat ever u say he/she will irgnore u.another kind of customer will be no intnetion to buy but the way u talk makes it sound good then there will be 50% chance u may close the deal.Its really not easy and im really putting effort and i wish u to know that im really working hard.sometimes u ask for my sales i feel sad and at times piss off cos its not that i wish to have those kinda amount.
Dear i do really love u and hope u dont think that i change already cos in fact i dint change yet the lifestyle im living in change cos of work and also $$$ matters that change me.pls dont doubt me and never think tat i dont love u like last time le.
well i am counting this amount im getting next month-$1600/$100 from last mth as the less.so that i can plan properly wat i need to spend on.
1)Courts Bill-$400
2)Singtel Bill-$150
3)Kelvin Bill-$400
4)Anna Bill-$200
5)New HP-$250
6)New Shoes-$30
7)Top up Fare Card-$30
Total amount spend-$1460/- :(
Amount left to use -$240/- :(
Tats so much of my pay gone not even adding paying BANK yet.i probably got the answer in me already that i think i will be declaring bankrupt cos the amount is to great and i cant even fork out any $$$ to pay it,unless i can find a part-time job soon which i already started looking for it.If only the bank can delay my payments till SEPT2009 then i guess i will be rather loose in a way to pay them.hope miracle happens.
Seeing the pas i live with and the present now i am in i know i really did change alot in the way i see $$$ and spend it really wisely.u may think i didnt but in fact i do which only i myself will feel it others wont be able to see it.
Kenneth Chan will keep strong in fighting this war against $$$,cos i wont admit defeat so easily which is not my character.till the day i pay finish everything i know i wont enjoy my life and i really hope u understand wat im thinking.
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
June sucks
June Sucks big time been working for the past 6 days and my sales is only $1.5k till date,wat the hell is happening man..i feel damn pathetic when u ask how is my sales and it not that i dont wish to do sales bt the problems lies with the customer whther they are willing to buy the diamond it all comes down to fate as in whether u serve the kind that will buy.left with 13days to hit my target which is left with $23k which i know its quite diffcult but no matter wat i going to put my best in.time is passing so soon and a major reshufflement is coming and i am really wondering where will i be going.next is my confirmation and i really wonder will i be confirm..today im late for work but i dont blame u cos its me who wanted to slp more which cos myself to be late if i would havewoken up at that time nothing will be wrong well let the matter rest and dont take it to hard k.i love u.:)
thinking of the past and the things we went thru its been 11mths already and i am looking forward fr our 1yr which i have never went thru a relationship that long.hehe even though its great singapore sale but its not working maybe ppl are jus buying more branded and electronic items then buying diamonds.no matter wats the turn out like tis end of the month i wont be depress neither happy cos i know that i did my best and wanna hope the following mth will be better at the new outlet im going too.as well as hoping the new colleagues i am going to work with will be good.
im going to slp soon cos i wish to have my full energy working tomoro cos i am working with that SJE for the 2nd time and who knows what the hell she going to test me tomoro.well in a few days time my traier will be going to give me a test in order i get confirm which is very crucial to me and hope everything that i learn and gone thru will put me to my confirmation
thinking of the past and the things we went thru its been 11mths already and i am looking forward fr our 1yr which i have never went thru a relationship that long.hehe even though its great singapore sale but its not working maybe ppl are jus buying more branded and electronic items then buying diamonds.no matter wats the turn out like tis end of the month i wont be depress neither happy cos i know that i did my best and wanna hope the following mth will be better at the new outlet im going too.as well as hoping the new colleagues i am going to work with will be good.
im going to slp soon cos i wish to have my full energy working tomoro cos i am working with that SJE for the 2nd time and who knows what the hell she going to test me tomoro.well in a few days time my traier will be going to give me a test in order i get confirm which is very crucial to me and hope everything that i learn and gone thru will put me to my confirmation
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Start of June 2009
Its June 2009 already,many things happen but its the past already and i have to live my life more fully each day cos time is running fast and i wanna be ahead of it not behind of it.i need to really find a part-time job to work on my off day cos i wish to earn more $$$ i know my current job cant support me much so its best to find another job to settle some $$$ issue as well.
Another new month and i muz chiong my sales again.i wanna be a top salesman in the diamond industry and ppl will look onto me and buy from me.i hpe this is a job that will make my career.
Went home and visit ah ma today and i can see she is getting old and weak i feel so hurt to see her like that plus she is getting skinny each time i see her.i hope everything is fine with her and i do wish to spend more time with her also cos she not young already and its time i show my respect and filial to her cos she was the one who brought me up all along i owe her to much that i know i can possibly be returning her much in my life all i can do is make her happy.
Im old enough and i know wat i need to do i cant drag things behind me for a life time i eed to piority them in order to look forward not stumble over the matter once it appears or come again.Wish me luck this month again and hope i can hit my target to bring more $$$ home.
Now another of my fren is getting married and i feel so fortunate for them.hope things g well in the future for them and i send my blessing to them..will be going for his wdding dinner next week.well will stop here and continue another day..
Another new month and i muz chiong my sales again.i wanna be a top salesman in the diamond industry and ppl will look onto me and buy from me.i hpe this is a job that will make my career.
Went home and visit ah ma today and i can see she is getting old and weak i feel so hurt to see her like that plus she is getting skinny each time i see her.i hope everything is fine with her and i do wish to spend more time with her also cos she not young already and its time i show my respect and filial to her cos she was the one who brought me up all along i owe her to much that i know i can possibly be returning her much in my life all i can do is make her happy.
Im old enough and i know wat i need to do i cant drag things behind me for a life time i eed to piority them in order to look forward not stumble over the matter once it appears or come again.Wish me luck this month again and hope i can hit my target to bring more $$$ home.
Now another of my fren is getting married and i feel so fortunate for them.hope things g well in the future for them and i send my blessing to them..will be going for his wdding dinner next week.well will stop here and continue another day..
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