Loneliness

Days past yet im still in a mess.my mind is full of passion before but now i have to restart everything.seriously i dont mind to do it again but will there be a pillar supporting me thru out.Had a few tiff cos of my latness didnt mean it at all but i knew i lied cos i didnt wan u to feel angry but eventually it backfire me.am i always late??shit job i have which really make me wana look for another line to start it off but IR is around the corner which i dream and waited for,will i be able to wait till then??im sorry if i spoil ur mood going out to party with them,sudden feel the lonliness which i never felt.u say u wanna stay with me but i ask u to go cos i didnt wan u becos of me spoil the whole girls morale..i did the rite choicecos i didnt wanna be selfish.i know u wan me to join them but i didnt wan cos i wasnt in the rite mood neither would i have the spare cash to enjoy at this moment like i say i will rather stay home every off day till i settle everything which i wont mind u going out cos if u follow me that way u will feel bored.more over im a guy with no life at times and i wonder whether is it boring with me at times.after all,save the sms u send askng me to call them cos they looking for me if they really looking for me they will call me.but it would still be the same answer to them that i wont be going cos i dont wanna spoil any one mood.jus wanna to hear from u when u back home safely.sorry i cant bring u go holiday next week which i promise u and made u took leave which i feel so guilty in my heart.i feel so sorry since that day till now i havent get over it.im really tired and wanna jus lie in bed and fall into a deep sleep waking up tomoro will be another fresh day ahead..sweet dreams to everyone especially u.

Sadness in the heart,
KEnneth Chan(DEAR)