Rough Times

Going thru a rough time which i know many things its beyond my control .Am i really going to jus be myself?Y do i get jealous and paranoid at times?Dont i did or show enough to love?Am i really such stupid or idiot?many questions linger in my mind which i dunno how to break the ice i know if i ask or do,you may think i dont trust or care about you which ends up making you either sad or angry with me but the truth is i didnt mean it,i just wan a assurance for certain things.im not complaining or gossiping jus wanna be frank towards each other.i dont wish you to think im doing things behind ur back cos i really never y i never reason very simple cos i love you and i dont wish to lose you for stupid things..im willing to be your everything but are you ready to accpet me rite now in this state and personality?you say i will regret 1day but wat makes you think i will regret cos i know i wouldnt unless you do things behind me then tat will be my greatest regret but i know you wont.you ask me will i leave you 1 day,i say i will never leave you cos my heart is implanted into yours unless you did something seriously wrong that i really cant forgive you.i may see girls but the eyes is jus natural i cant stop it either but all i can say im yours now and forever.i dont mind being poor but i know i use my own hands to earn money then doing things tat are wrong.i live up to my name and will never do stupid things.sometimes i wonder is it i always do foolish things to get u angry or sad but i really didnt notice and bother cos i know the person in my heart is you but i understand y cos you care and love me,for me its the same cos i care and love you.i jus wan our relationship to be honest and frank cos i know sometimes u scare me see wat ppl sms you then i may get jealous thats y you delete it away but will that be better or will it make me think that you are hiding things from me.im sorry to say that way like i dont trust you like tat but i do trust you tats y i didnt bother at times.cos i trust you tat you wont do things behind me.all i ask for is jus you and me in our own world not letting ppl step in and not letting others disturb us.i jus wann a simple life with you not full of mystery.dear dear hope you see tis already you know wat i actually mean and dont get mad cos i am jus speaking my mind out.dont take it as you made me into tis state but think of how u can be there for me when i need you,wat happen has past so dont look back and let it bother you jus look ahead seeing the bright future we will have.i will be never happy alone and without you cos you are my everything.i jus hope that i can enter ur group of frens knowing them then rather guessing who they are,making me your top piority then others.do i really ask too much?sry if i say anything wrong or you dont like to hear or see but i really jus never mean anything jus speaking my mind..cos you are that that very very important to me.

UR FAT PIG ALWAYS,
KEnneth Chan (DEAR)