You are not Another Girl In MY Life

Been few days since i blog again busy with things,started betting soccer again jus won $200 to survive the week till pay day if not i dunno how to survive at all.i hope to win more so that i can clear my debts.dear im sorry for gambling but tats the only way to clear and give us a future if there is one.cos like wat u say u got a choice to leave me or to stay by me..but all i can say you are not another girl in my life but the one i love from the day i knew u till the day i die.it may seems easy to say but its the truth in my heart.trust is slowly build upon like even now i believe u cant trust me fully too.i dont think we are complicated its jus that you think too much abt earning $$$,give urself sometime cos u are still young earning is amount now is really better then many ppl ur age.as for me im 24 and my income is really low jus imagine u lose me by abit only..$$$ cant earn finish one and when u rush to do things jus for seeing the money come in the faster it will crumble.its the same meaning as the faster u climb the faster u fall.hope you understand this,im not saying u cant do it but learn the basics before going further.i know you can have alot of suiters better then me out there thats why i count myself lucky to have u..which is why i treasure you alot maybe not to the extend of what u wan.lookiing at the LV bag u wan i know its hard for me to get it for u but i will slowly save $$$ to buy it only if u are able to wait.i really wish to give u the best but i know it will never make u feel enough cos girls are always girls.even though i never get to see u much often but i wanna treasure every moment spend with you..i really hope 1 day we can go see dentist then book car theory and repair hp and batam trip and see HDB flats together may i wish to see all this in the present or near future with u but its all in ur choice now.but i kenneth chan yi long have never met any other girls being with you for the past few months cos i believe in the relationship and dont wish to spoil it.Fatty Bom Bom,i hope now u will understand me.

You Will Always Be In My Heart

Been a few days since i blog was busy cos of events happening at cafe del mar.been 2 weeks since i and lao po having not the same off day but didnt mind cos i know we are makin time for each other still.times flies so fast been with her for almost going to 5mths le.happy thru out this relationship even though at times we quarrel but its alrite cos have to give and take at times can see that she change alot caring more for her family also which is a good thing.her parents treat me very nice cook and even do special drinks for me cos i working under the sun for more than 8 hrs.cant wait to attend chuanie wedding with her and also going holiday as well.dear dear i really miss u alot during my work times even though its jus a few hours but it seems like a few days.im sorry for making u angry jus now but i didnt mean it and hope u understand that i was trying to solve some lateness issue for the staff.please let us not say the break up word again cos in my heart there is only u no one else.i will promise u to settle my debts soon so tat we can enjoy life i know u suffer alot this few months and i feel sorry tat i cant give u much ike last time but it will pass soon.really happy to see u tat day at cafe del mar even though i didnt spend much time with u but i really aprreciate it.darling will always be darling it will never change the fact.now waiting for time to pass so tat i can see u and hug u to bed again.hope time flies fast so tat we can see each other..love u my fatty bom bom..hehe

With Love,
Kenneth Chan (DEAR)

Meaningful Song

(男) 明年这个时间 约在这个地点
(女) 记得带著玫瑰 打上领带系上思念
(男) 动情时刻最美 真心的给不累
(女) 太多的爱怕醉 没人疼爱 再美的人也会憔悴
(男) 我会送你红色玫瑰
(女) 你知道我爱流泪 你别拿一生眼泪相对
(男)(女) 未来的日子有你才美 梦才会真一点
(女) 我学著在你爱里沉醉
(男) 我不撤退 你守护著我穿过黑夜
(合) 我愿意这条情路相守相随 你最珍贵
(男) 动情时刻最美 真心的给不累
(女) 太多的爱怕醉 没人疼爱 再美的人也会憔悴
(男) 我会送你红色玫瑰
(女) 你知道我爱流泪 你别拿一生眼泪相对
(男)(女) 未来的日子有你才美 梦才会真一点
(女) 我学著在你爱里沉醉
(男) 我不撤退 你守护著我穿过黑夜
(合) 我愿意这条情路相守相随 你最珍贵
(男) 我会送你红色玫瑰
(女) 你知道我爱流泪 你别拿一生眼泪相对
(男)(女) 未来的日子有你才美 梦才会真一点
(女) 我学著在你爱里沉醉
(男) 我不撤退 你守护著我穿过黑夜
(合) 我愿意这条情路相守相随 你最珍贵

Rough Times

Going thru a rough time which i know many things its beyond my control .Am i really going to jus be myself?Y do i get jealous and paranoid at times?Dont i did or show enough to love?Am i really such stupid or idiot?many questions linger in my mind which i dunno how to break the ice i know if i ask or do,you may think i dont trust or care about you which ends up making you either sad or angry with me but the truth is i didnt mean it,i just wan a assurance for certain things.im not complaining or gossiping jus wanna be frank towards each other.i dont wish you to think im doing things behind ur back cos i really never y i never reason very simple cos i love you and i dont wish to lose you for stupid things..im willing to be your everything but are you ready to accpet me rite now in this state and personality?you say i will regret 1day but wat makes you think i will regret cos i know i wouldnt unless you do things behind me then tat will be my greatest regret but i know you wont.you ask me will i leave you 1 day,i say i will never leave you cos my heart is implanted into yours unless you did something seriously wrong that i really cant forgive you.i may see girls but the eyes is jus natural i cant stop it either but all i can say im yours now and forever.i dont mind being poor but i know i use my own hands to earn money then doing things tat are wrong.i live up to my name and will never do stupid things.sometimes i wonder is it i always do foolish things to get u angry or sad but i really didnt notice and bother cos i know the person in my heart is you but i understand y cos you care and love me,for me its the same cos i care and love you.i jus wan our relationship to be honest and frank cos i know sometimes u scare me see wat ppl sms you then i may get jealous thats y you delete it away but will that be better or will it make me think that you are hiding things from me.im sorry to say that way like i dont trust you like tat but i do trust you tats y i didnt bother at times.cos i trust you tat you wont do things behind me.all i ask for is jus you and me in our own world not letting ppl step in and not letting others disturb us.i jus wann a simple life with you not full of mystery.dear dear hope you see tis already you know wat i actually mean and dont get mad cos i am jus speaking my mind out.dont take it as you made me into tis state but think of how u can be there for me when i need you,wat happen has past so dont look back and let it bother you jus look ahead seeing the bright future we will have.i will be never happy alone and without you cos you are my everything.i jus hope that i can enter ur group of frens knowing them then rather guessing who they are,making me your top piority then others.do i really ask too much?sry if i say anything wrong or you dont like to hear or see but i really jus never mean anything jus speaking my mind..cos you are that that very very important to me.

UR FAT PIG ALWAYS,
KEnneth Chan (DEAR)

Quote of the Day

I was staring on my cellphone and wondering what is the best words to express how i feel, but i couldnt find one because u have occupied my mind all the time...
all that i know is, im thinking of you

Understanding Each Other

Another day at work.got to know the news of the S pass Holder some which got terminated and i really feel sad about the matter but life still got to goes on eventually for 3 of them a job so tat they can stay on but for the rest i cant help much cos time is rushing and we are having a recession period not much company would pay that much to hire them..went down Toa Payoh on Tues to buy some stuff but got attitude by dear dear cos she feel tired and i stll drag her out from home..i dont blame her cos i feel tat i didnt thought about her feelings but things were oka after we were at there..bought few things and dear dear saw a cosmetic that she like but i ask her not to buy cos its expensive but eventually thought of giving her a surprise so went down before work on wed to get it for her.hope she will treasure it and like the surprise even though its nothing much but meant from the heart.went straight home after tat..haha last nite her bro got for me the Red Alert 3 game so waited till this morning then try it.went to have supper with her after my work and then straight away went home and lie flat on bed dunno y did i feel so tired but i know its very comfy..hehe,woke up at 10am by her jus acc her eat bread which i dont mind cos i feel happy the moment i saw her so lively but knew she didnt sleep at all thru out the night and after which we went straight back to sleep till 4pm when i woke her up.saw her hp sms which was frm tis customer and i feel jealous tat moment didnt mean to see her hp de,i know u love me alot same goes for me jus that at times im afraid of losing u to those ppl..well anyway everything is over st=ettle our worries and at least its another learning view for me and to her to let her know how much she is to me..went to work and the event had started and the whole place was like upside down..hmmm but jus carry on with it till it ended at 11pm.wondering how is my dear dear did she eat her dinner,is she busy,did anyone bully her..well,really wish to see her soon cos i really miss her badly and its like we cant be seperated even a few hours..haha tats how close we are to each other..next week onwards will be a busy week ahead till year end due to the events line up and i already request to work next week nite so tat i can have time to pei her thru out the day..hope things will move smoothly ahead cos im awaiting for our trip to Genting and also chuanie wedding..sure will be a fun load ahead.now waiting to kill time till i finish work at 4am then faster rush home to see her..well,shall end here and continue it tomoro..jus wanna say dear dear no mater wat u r the most beautiful GF i ever had and i wont wanna lose u to other ppl cos my heart belongs to you le.

With Love,
Kenneth Chan (DEAR)

Its A Nua Day=)

Yesterday off stay at home with Dear Dear nua the whole day only went out for dinner and retrun home to nua again.haha mission accomplish home she like it..hmmm sorry dear if u still feel angry about the pics but i didnt mean to put it there jus that i really never realise i didnt delete all never do it on purpose to hurt u de..now i very hungry le but dear dear still slping so wait till she wake up then bring her go eat and make her specs but now have to check on the thailand trip see whether its worth to go ant le..Lao Po i love u very much..hehe

You Will Always Be In My Heart

Woke up early met Darling for breakfast at mcdonalds,really happy to see her cos i really miss her very badly.it was jus a mere 30mins seeing each other cos i got to go work.had a long day at work cos there was a event held in Cafe Del MAr today at 3pm..wat SGH family Day.the whole place was crowded today cos of the event also the public ppl who came down to tan or drink.was working alone in the bar cos not enough staff so jus do wat i can for the event but the ppl like never drink before do how much they jus drin how much they can like that..hoping she is having a goodrest at home and dreaming of me lol..lao po sorry didnt sms u sweet sweet sms cos i was busy all the way..aftet work went down to Clarke Quay and buy darling dinner cos she havent eat..then chit chat with regular customer and greg at clinic till 10pm when i went home straight..now the only think can do is watch tv till i doze off ten wake up can see her for breakfast le..cant wait to spend my day with her after tat..love u darling very much.we will be going Genting cnt wait to faster come cos i need a break with her together ..hehe

In My Mind,
Kenneth Chan (DEAR)

Sweet Things Wil Never End

Woke up at 9.30am for work at 11am tis morning saw her sleeping so soundly and sweet didnt bother her went to get ready for work had breakfast cos her mum bought it and were chit chatting with them can see tat i really enter her family and doesnt really feel shy cos get use to it le..After which she woke up as i was about to leave work.see me off at the door step and off i went for work.listening to the songs in my hp as usual on my way to work.reach workplace and had to prepare notes for the staff who will be attending my english lesson later at 4pm.did my email acc up.dear dear call me and was surprise cos was thinking that she was sleeping but told me she keep coughing and cant get to slp told her to see a doc but she doesnt wan cos i know how stubborn she is so chat with her till she was tired and when to bed.continue with my training till 8pm and then at last i got my time to sms her..told me her off day was diff from mine and my heart suddenly sank cos i knew the next few days i wont be able to see her now it had to drag another few more days.and was wondering wat am i going to do on my Off day without her i feel so sad bt knew if i ask her to change i will be disturbing her work and also many things.well i guess i cant change mine.life is always full of ups and downs and we have to go thru it in order to make us strong.after work went home was expecting her to call or sms but seems like she is really busy.well,i know its hard on her side tats y i dont wish to disturb her but jus left quietly for home.sms when i got home and surfing the net now for our hoilday trip next month and hope everything went smooth so tat we can go.but rite now i worry that the melvin will not allow her to take leave during the december season.waiting for kenneth yang to eturn my psp cos he really drag so long till i really piss off already wats best is sms him dunno how to reply.havent seen lao po for the whole day and i really miss her alot even though its easy to say but it really meant it deep down my heart and i know its not going to be easy the coming few days due to our work..i really hope things can go the way we wanted so tat i can at least spend a day with her cherishing every moment with her.really worry for my lao po cos she sometimes really dunno whether she is sick and still continue working then also the ppl there are so sly till drag her to drink which her problem is she cant drink if ot she will feel sick easily..Lao po i really miss u and also love u till the end of time..well im really tired and need to hae my sleep cos im working 9am later in the morning hope everything is alrite at her side..

With Love,
Kenneth Chan (DEAR)

Contented with What I Have In My Life

Had a wonderful 2days of OFF.spend my time with my beloved wife to be thru out the 2days.Mon went to town for a walk and shop abit till end up a little india there had to walk to bugis there saw chuanie..haha such a small world..after that had dinner and return home early cos i and dear dear didnt sleep well the last few days.Tue went to Underwater World at Sentosa which i promise my lao po to bring her there..visit many place at Sentosa..haha was a very funny outing but i guess my lao po and i enjoy it thru out..had dinner with her and eddy at Waraku Pasta at Central..hate the service there will never ever go bck there.after which make our way to meet bro jon and gf to play mahjong.end up losing but dont really matter cos the bond btw me and my darling is there which this is wat i wanna see only..left at 2am for home which still got to pack clothes and stuff..haha going to fall alseep already,Wed work late shift but went down officee early to settle all the HR doc and left for work..like being SABO cos im the only one working night so jus carry on with my work and taking care the staff..haha time past by fast and soon close already..went down wait for my darling finish work..

Love u,
Kenneth Chan (DEAR)

Always Be My Lao Po =)

Lao Po came down wait for me finish work and then we went to catch the movie The Coffin which really damn stupid and rather cheap production which really waste the $$$ to watch guess alot ppl also kana cheated by this show..haha return home and had a great time .Lao po help me do my face.fall alseep once she done it which i guess i was really tired and need to wake up early for work a 9am but the worse thing is i feel bad that she didnt sleep cos she scare i cant wake up or be late wok..end up staying awake the whole night and watch over me..Lao Po thanks alot woke up at 7.30am and she made coffee for me which i was really touched.left the house and went to work.were discussing about our Treat to have a good dinner together at 1 of the hotels but yet to decide which hotel first to eat.wrok was smooth thru out the day and the boys from CLinic came down to party..they spend quite alot and dranks alot till some were really to high..today i kana suan cos thought going to rain yet in the end never rain made me MALU cos i shifted some guest in to the alfresco area..kana call Big Cannon..haha was talking to randy after work till time to go down Clarke Quay find Bebe cos i guess she havent eat too like me..Had Dinner and Supper at Coffee Club and was given a 20% discount cos they knew i was from Clinic.had more hen 15 ppl who went down which made mesee the team spirit..waiting for my Bebe to finish work at 5am then fetch me go home ..hope time faser paa by so i can see her le..

Really Being Miss,
KEnneth Chan (DEAR)

I Love U More Than Words Can Say..

Time past and been a wonderful days that i had went thru.work was good and so thus my relationship with my Lao Po.Been staying at her place this few days after my work and going to work from her place.her family was quite alrite with me staying over which i dont feel awkard neither afraid cos we can along quite well nowadays..best thing is her mother waited for me at void deck and chit chat on the way to work which made me feel nervous but getting use to it le..haha been sleeping less but im okay and i rest assure you my darling tat if i really tired i will let u know pls dont feel like it ur fault..many things u done may think tat its snall or not important but i can say i saw it all and really appreciate and feel touched so i dont wan you to blame urself tat u never did anything for me at all..planning our trip to either taiwan or thailand cos her mum talk to us and they will be going for a trip early next year and ask us to join.will be considering cos have to seek leader permission..feel sad for some staff at Clinic cos they are leaving due to the fact tat they were not happy about certain things..finish work early today cos i change my roster with michelle if not dunoo how to spend time with her..went to watch Coffin and i can say its a Fcuk up show with no head or tail and its like wasting money to watch after tat came home and rest ocs i got to wake up earky tonoro for work..hmmm cant wait till we are Offf this week then can really spend more time together..hehe wanna tell my darling that i wan to thank her for the things she did..love u my Dear..

Very Important Person,
Kenneth Chan (Dear)