Turning Over A New Leaf

Its time to do the neccessary adjustment in life cos i cant go on like this forever making you worry on the time abt me making u feel that i dont care or love you anymore.but to the fact i really love u more and care for you too.its been a few weeks which i know i let you down due to the soccer which i pay more attention to but now all this is gone and i will have to step up and lift my head high up to continue this journey ahead i know its not easy but im still young and theres still a long way for me,if onl ppl were to give me time and chance to prove that i can do it.at least all tis stop and we dont get to quarrel over this things everyday in life.i really wan the best of us.time past and you may think my heart for you have change but i can say that i never change at all.6months already and till the future it will never change.i really dont understand at times when i call u,either u talking on the phone that cant answer or you will jus answer and tell me stright and direct call me back later but you never call me back it makes me wonder whether will you ever remember that i call you and how important am i to you.like today for example.i dont wish to make matter worse so i jus waited for your call but still never call back and i wonder is your job so busy to call me??you tell me play badminton and swimming im happy in a way but will we ever do that will be a very big ??? to me cos i never did that with you before and will it happen wil be another thing.hope it will 1 day,like you always tell me actions speaks louder then words and i will always remember that.nowadays i got nothing to llok forward to cos even payday comes i know i have to clear all my debts.just looking forward to see you after work or off days spending together.i wonder in my heart am i a burden to you know cos to be frank i lost everything in life where i have to start all over again which i have to depend on you moreover to support me.for this coming year and i really dont wish this to happen,i feel so depress in myself that i can do anything for you and making things worse in a way.im sorry but i know you are numb with the word i say.but there isnt anything else i can put in a way to make u smile again.maybe what you say is rite if only i can fill ur heart with love again...hoping hings will change after all this shit that hapen on me.