Quote of the Day

I want to make you smile as you make me.
I wish you saw my thoughts right through my eyes.
You ask me what I'm thinking.
I can't tell you.

You are the stars, and I the empty skies.
In me there is a yearning ever flowing
That needs to reach an end that never comes.
I cannot be myself without you with me.

This is a truth no wisdom ever plumbs.
You laugh, and say that I'm your personal angel,
And this is what I want so much to be.
The beauty of my life is like a passion
That blows right through the person that you see.

Sweet Things Wil Never End

Been few days since i blog guess to the tiredness and also was with my dear dear thru out then didnt wanna let her see..well getting use to my new job but only thing is theres many things and the culture i have to learn there.other then tat spend my time with my Lao po at her home for the past few days checking out many things about ROM and Hotels and Outdoor event..really looking forward for our big day so i have to really start saving every cent down to earth that i can give her the best wedding a girl should have.Saturday tok Mc and spend with her and eddy going out to some place went to marina for dinner then went over to KazBar where Remus waswroking and had wat we wanted for quite sometime ShiSha.haha plus some drinks which he ENT us so only paid the ShiSha took many pics but to bad BEBE havent teach me how to upload it to my blog..haha went home early about 12am cos we were all so tired cos never slpet enough the past few days.slept early then after tat woke up before going to work.Sunday was Eve of Deepavali so work till 4am and then went over to Bro Jon hse play mahjong 2 rounds and i and Dear Dear lost $250 but never mind thats covered for by Norman,her sis sent me a sms which i really touch cos i really did my part as in staying at her place tis few days..didnt slp cos have to work at 11am so jus nice game end i went to work straight and Dear Dear went home to slp.but had a small tiff over some issue which we promise each other not to bring it up again cos we should be happy with each other rite now then thinking about the past.work thru out and was like a security guard cos today alot of Blangedesh workers came to Sentosa and they were all over the place till i damn fuck up cos have to keep asking them to leave till i pua siao and keep shouting at them like gangster.till they move away..stand out at the sun from 12pm til 4pm and it was damn bloody hot till i damn siao cos never slept the day before and wasnt use to it also..lucky it did rain after 4pm but no point cos i look so dark and got sunburn already..hmmmm..didnt eat lunch till 5plus 6pm cos still busy and customer cant stand the face of the blacks looking at them like never see girls wear bikini before..alot of trouble la..knew i was getting the ache here and there after standing so long and walking up and down chasing them away.jus looking forward to finish work quickly and go home bathe then wait for DEar DEar finish her work then can see her le..miss her very badly.i agree to wat she say we really to use to each other.and hope it will continue years down the road.Dear many things i say u may not believe but its the truth and i may not put it in a rite way to say out maybe im dumb in r/s..now waiting for u to come and hug me and care for me after a day of hell and sun..hehe

Muacks,
Kenneth Chan (DEAR)

Contented with What I Have In My Life

When over Dear Dear house yesterday and pei her the whole day.Slept over at her house and spend as much time as i can with her.went Xing Wan at nite to have supper and talk about many things and the future for us.i will never run away,cos i really wanna make u fully mine and be happy together..i know you or me will be sad at times as we cant see each other often,trying my best to faster solve this problem.soon we will be together everyday le..I will make sure i plan our ROM and things nicely cos its once in as life time for us..thinking later i have to work and u off i very sianz cos we going to miss each other but promise after work will come over find u k..dear dear like ur shoutout says,ONE AND ONLY..to me its the same u are the ONE AND ONLY de..love you so so so much till heaven also cannot stand me..hahaha

Thinking Badly About You

Had been working thru out tis whole weekend and yesterday work late 5pm till 1am then continue my zombie shift for today from 10am till 7pm.was quite tiring but time past fast and i know if i can convert to perm morning i will be able to work a part time nite job to save more money for wat ever plans we have in mind.well lucky can change off day if not i really dunno how to spend time with her.really miss her alot and badly but lucky jus not got to go down cannery to see her if not i guess i will go crazy.its not easy at times to understand wat u thinking cos at first talking about ROM and stuff to prepare now u tell me u scare of this and that i really need u to have trust in me that things will jus work out fine my dear.u jus need to relax abit more maybe y u tense up is because u didnt get enough rest tis few days and i dont blame u.dear dear hope wat u sms me will come true cos im looking forward to it with u.getting tired but know i have many assignments in hand to check and find out.well jus hope time flies past soon and i will be able to see u soon..lao po i really love you alot.

With care,
Kenneth Chan (DEAR)

Facts and Truth of Life-2

Well,firstly i wanna sy sorry to my Lao po andfor wat had happen.didnt wish things to go this way but since it did i dont wish to say much either but to swallow it down and tolerate it for the time being but really wish to faster get out of the box and live a better life with u.lucky got to change my off day with someone if not i will be damn miserable cos i only got a day off and wanna spend it with my dearest Lao Po.no matter how bad.Heaven is treating me rite now i dont bother neither care even if the world is going to meet its end i jus wanna spend my precious last moment with u and only u nothing can come between us.never will i wan u to worry about things like wat bikini babes or so ever cos i know myself well nothing can distract me from u cos u gave in alot and taken many hardship which u may think its small but to me its a different kind of view.i know i will miss u badly but everything will pass by soon.i really wish to be there everything for you.Hope time will pass soon and see you later in the evening.Wanna tell u from Lao Po,I LOVE YOU DEEP DEEP.going to sleep now cos later have to wake up early for work.sweet dreams and sleep tight

With faith in us,
Kenneth Chan (DEAR)

Love You Very Very Much

Today was a day since 3yrs back that i started so early in the morning.seeing Dear Dear so drunk my heart hurts and really blame those ppl for forcing her to drink,hope she knows how to really turn them down cos you cant drink after drinking you will fall sick and all the syptoms will start coming back.woke up and fetch her frm below before preparing myself for work left the house around 8.30am.sawing her sleep so peacefully didnt wanna wake her up and tell her im going to work.been a long and tiring day for me as i reach there at 10am and started to prepare for the private function for 500pax.The sun was killing me so hot lol..everything when smoothly and was helping here and there even looking after the door like a door bitch and even life guard looking after the kids in the foam pool.hmmm,after all it rain and we quickly got to packed everything not letting it get wet but myself and the guys were all wet to the max..but tis is life in cafe del mar.got to get use to it.after the event there was dinner crowd followed by ppl packing the beach and was not able to leave till 10.30pm.legs really sore and my muscle really aches for its really not a easy job there.Really admire the staff cos they really are as hard working as the family in Clinic.Keep on missing Lao po and really wish to see her soon.Was thinking of staying to help the team but im really exhuasted by the sun and the rain in the afternoon.if not i'll stay to help them till closing.sorry guys...slept thru out the Mrt journey home.tat was how tired i am.hoping to see them later in the early afternoon as well as morning when i can see my Lao po le..really tis time round we intend to get ROM next year so have to slowly get ready and break the news out to our beloved frens and co workers..looking forward to the day we sign the papers and i help u wear our rings.well,guess i'll stop here cos i need a nap before my dear dear comes home.

With lots of Love
Kenneth chan (DEAR)

Quote of the Day

All I ever wanted is in you:
Love, laughter, a pillow for my fears.
I want to give and to be given to
So I might feel myself flow through the years
Alive in you, the wonder of my tears.

Lying Back In Life-2

Been few days since i blog cos was quite busy for the time as i went over to cafe del mar and got myself to get use to there.Had a celebration last nite for my guys at Clinic bid me farwell and they bought me a cake also spray water at me and dunp me into the cold water with dry ice.it was sad to leave them but i got no other choice in life.i have to tolerate and go thru all tis,wat makes me worry is still her cos i love her very very much.First day of work already quite boring cos there was nothing to do and the staff there are so demolirise even told me they wan to quit..hmmm hope i tranfer there can make them cheer up abit more after wat they went thru b4 Adrian didnt task me anything except being a teacher to the china staff for i have to give them tuition.the place maybe be boring cos there nothing for me to do and all jobscope has been done by the rest of the supervisor but still i wanna learn from them cos its different in cannery and also help them out.this is my new home and i need to observe for the time being and try to beautify the place and also the ppl there.it may not be easy but im determine to do it.after work tis few days went over to cannery to wait for my lao po finish work and also see how things Clinic are my heart is still there and nothing can ever change it.im glad tat my guys bonding is strong cos i dont wish to see anyone leave the place.jus hoping time pass fast cos looking forward to Sunday when i can see the whole team at Cafe Del Mar and also my dear dear is going down to visit me i feel so honour and happy.this few days have been raining and the sales there is not good compare to a small outlet like Clinicit may be quite rundaown but i will think of a way out to deal some maintenance issue.Cafe del Mar is really indeed independent cos theres no near family outlet near them and they have to fend for themselves many things i may not know but i will slowly get to know the details and also the operations standard.As for the staff there will really need to talk to them and make them feel homely cos i think they are like Clinic staff need the motivation and team work cos they are not singaporeans mostly from other countries.Tomoro event is at 11am and i need to go in early to help them hope it will be busy so tat time will pass by fast.Thinking of you every moment my dear dear i really miss u very badly and hope the moment i open my eyes i can see u and it will brigthen my day and me.Dear u r the one and only one in me and nothing can replace it.I LOVE U.Muacks..going to bed now cos have to wake up at 8am and be there at 10am.sigining off with alot alot of love.thanks you u guys for seeing me off and celebrate it with me hope we can work again soon.

Kenneth Chan(DEAR)

Reasons Why I Love You

The Smell of your hair
The taste of your kiss
These are the things
That I will always miss
The sound of your voice
The feel of your hand
They affect me in ways
You could never understand
The love in your heart
The peace in your eyes
They make me feelLike
I want to cry
You are a gift
That God gave to me
And I can just feel
That we are meant to be
I'll love you forever
I hope you do too
For it's only a short while
Before we say "I do"

Lying Back In Life

Been rushing all my paper works and stuffs to be handed over to the new manager coming cos i'll be transfer to Cafe Del Mar soon.times really fly past so quickly been in Clinic for almost 2yrs and now im starting a new enviroment.was of yesterday slept till 5plus in the evening before i awake then left the house to Clarke Quay with Lao Po for waffle and strudels cos we craving for it..haha join romeo and the rest of the staffs and co workers at Clinic for a drink and it really surprise me that my supporters are there and everyone was like debating abt the whole thingy..never did i care much but jus hear them say it out.by the time its 12am left them and proceed with eddy and lao po to kovan 212 to have steak..knew my schedule in CDM its a 6 days work week and i am working 2pm till 10pm tis whole week end..haizz..sianzz..boring..today will be my last day in Clinic and i know many things awaits me to handover and do before i left Clinic.i really hope my guys will stay on strong without me u guys can still do it.prove it to me and i await good news to flood to CDM so tat i'll be proud of u guys never be sad cos life is always full of ups and downs.and lastly for me Lao po i love u very much even though at times i may not show out but deep down my heart i really do.i wish next year we can ROM and be happy thru out our life.need u to tolerate abit cos our working life will be diff but we are still staying together.will going to miss u at times during work but i know in my heart u always be there for me..

With Love and Care,
Kenneth Chan(LAO GONG)

New Work Place.

Really sad to receive a news that i'll be going to Cafe Del Mar on the 15th of tis month its so sudden and i also receive a final warning letter for i didnt report the case tat happen and neligence in work which got me into so much problems.i dont have a option either i go or i resign from tis company.there are many factors i need to consider cos Cafe del Mar pose as a great challenge to me and also another stepping stone in life.The other part i cant bare to part from Clinic cos i have been ther for almost 2yrs and the staffs there are great.really makes me wonder y did they made such a decision for me.i really thank my staffs for the support they given me thru out tis 2yrs at Clinic they really put in so much hard work tat really many cant be seen except when u are there with them challenging the waves.they are my eart and soul for Clinic.i know they cat bare to see me leave as well but in life we have to carry on wat we are aiming for if not u will just stuck there like a sitting duck.time is racing towards me and i dont really have a clear picture of how my new outlet is like and the system there is but i have to find out more in order not to lose my title and face towards the new staffs im going to face.i really appreciate Clinic staff howeer i know i cant bring them over.hang on and i will sought things out in how we can work together again.as for my personal life everything is going well.love my lao po alot and i know she feel sad and worry for me at the same time cos we wont get to see each other often and also she is worried that i will keep eyeing on the bikini babes there which i wanna tell her my heart only have her and wish tat when she is free do come there find me cos i know i will be bored plus maybe counting coconut trees there.Tis huge challenge awaits me which my days are numbered.i tried my best not to shad a tear in front of them cos i know if i do so they will do the same and things will take a different point of view.Went to do my tattoo on thurs which is still not completed yet but doesnt really bother cos i got more important things to see into now..trying to find more things abt there thru the net and ppl working there but it seems there little known abt it.dear dear i love u alot and hoe we can ROM 1 fine day when both of us are in the rite state of mind.

Love U..
Kenneth Chan (DEAR)

Happy Days Ahead..

Its been a few days since i blog.been quite busy doing many things with Dear Dear cos celebrate her birthday and also meet the parents session.so stress lol,haha but manage to click with them well.hmmm,hope dear dear like the present i bought for her.well things when well thru out my AL days but also worry for my outlet cos no one is there to guide them as well.Mos and Kandi Bar close le so guess many rearrangement of staff plus when i always not around they will always get into unneccesary troubles with the management.well woke up early and settle the unsettle business which its really hurts and heartache but we knew there will be other times ahead.now jus wan her to be happy and not think anything else.Celebrate her dad birthday today with her family and chatted with them the 2nd time guess i did nade a good impression for both myself and her.thou i may not have much $$$ left but dont wanna bother much as long as both of us is happy can le.now jus wanna relax with her thru my AL b4 i start to chiong my work again..happy days ahead for s my lao pao..

Kenneth Chan(DEAR)

Always Be My Baby=)

Met jasper and frens for coffee on my off day talk alot cos long time never see them plus many other things till about 3am waiting for dear finish work then go back home together.Woke up early cos dear not feeling well brought her down tosee docor but too many ppl seeing so she pei me go cut my hair at the saloon.after that went home get ready for work but send her to her place there then she went to see doctor herself cos i rushing for time to go office collect my staff cheques.went down for work and rush to do finish my staff schedule cos going for leave already..at last long time never taken my leave but not going overseas till Janaury which i promise her andshall not change our mind..time pass by as normal and dear went over shelle place for mahjong eventually she win only $7..hahaha so cute of her but as long as she enjoy her time can le.Aric email me a thing regarding some bible stuff but can understand wat he wanna tell me.cos i dont like ppl to beat ard the bush rather he be direct to me.well,Mos clsing tomoro for renovation and was lke a hell day cos they did a very cheap promo to sell of as my btls as possible.Zack Chua came down find me and brought them to Mos for a drink long time never see him since our last reservice camp..hope everything will go smoothly wit out my presence cos im afraid they migt cause uncessary problems.anyway will try to help them even thou i wont be around but will stilll be reachable.eyes feel like closing le maybe im tired of work and think to much of the Qs,Aric asked me earlier on.wanna stop le cos i wanna jus lie on bed and dream.dear still not feeling very well but i cant help much so try to spend time and ubderstanding to each other.will stop here but dear dont forget to eat ur med..let nature takes it course..

Restless,

Kenneth Chan (DEAR)

Thinking Badly

Wasnt really busy yesterday even though it was hari raya eve..not many crowd have time to call dear and talk to her when she brought her siblings to eat dinner at geylang.eventually settle quite a no of things and i know time is coming and she will be abit scare have to be there for her at all times cos i dont wish her to feel alone neither think other things.had a very heavy rain which i guess stop the crowd from coming to Clarke Quay.receive dear dear call at 2am in the morning almost finishing work and she was crying was worried wat happen and she said she had 2 bad dreams when she was lsping,try to comfort her down and did tell her to wait for me finish work and go over her place to pick her home cos i know she not stable and feel scare.finish work rush down to her place but she was like slping so didnt know wat to do then call eddy join me for breakfast at the same time hoping she will wake up..eventually she did so let her eat breakfast b4 we went home to slp early,wake up at 12pm cos promise dear dear to go Tangs as its their last day 20% store wide offer.haha but turn out to be not all bought her makeup and things which we got only a rebate of 12%.which we feel kana cheated but wat to do buy le then it maybe heart pain abit cos no discount but no matter wat she like it can le.went to wisma atria food court eat lunch which i kana slaughter by tis stupid mixed rice store charge me 2 meat 2 veg for $7.10.which i freaking piss off never will i go back eat that store le.walk around orchard till time to go for work but kana slash again..tis time by my dear dear for hagen daz ice cream..haha very funny day lol but everything was fine and looking forward for her bday which still no idea wat can i get for her wor..thinking hard rite now and waiting for her to come home cos she feeling sick again..

With Care,

Kenneth Chan (DEAR)